Day 1 - Lets get back on track!

Dear Skinny Jean Followers,

As you may have guessed by the amazing title of today's blogpost, I fell off the wagon. I mean I crashed off of it and did not realize how long it had been until I got an anonymous post yesterday asking of my whereabouts. Which by the way thanks to 'Anonymous,' you made me realize I needed to jump back online and let you all know what is going on and what I'm doing about it. It's really amazing to have a support group to help you online as well as off.

Ok down to the details of my fall from the diet. As I told you in my 'Day 14' post, my uncle had recently passed away and I was gone for a few days for the funeral. My eating habits and exercising habits faltered immensely. Then of course I had work stress and my boyfriend and I went on a much needed trip to Las Vegas, which although its a horrible excuse, I said I was on vacation and deserved a break. Needless to say, Vegas ended two weeks ago and I realized on Sunday of this week that not only had I gained every pound I so proudly loss, I also gained an extra pound. I was not happy with myself at this realization, and after some much pouting, self-criticism, and yes a little crying, I kicked myself in the ass and decided to start everything again, only better!

My new self...

The only better part comes in place after the meltdown and disgust I felt for myself. I realized that I don't want to be that way ever again. That WAS my low point. I finally took a long hard look at myself, my eating habits, and my diet and decided that I needed to not only change my physique but myself, body, mind, and soul to make this work. Thus, I have not only started eating healthier but I finally sucked it up and joined the local gym. Now I hadn't done this before because I am very self-conscious about my body and didn't want to go to the gym to do the little exercise I could do, only to be flanked by Barbie and Ken doing double time on the treadmill. But I joined up and was pleasantly surprised to find not only that I wasn't surrounded by Barbie and Ken wannabe's but that there were normal people - lots of normal people- there. I mean people like me, you, and even like Aunt Edna, there just trying to get healthy like me. So with this new drive and new membership I am onto a new start! This big girl is going to become a skinny girl, mind, body, and soul - watch out world, I'm coming out!