Ah, I do love Fridays! Besides the fact that, well, it's Friday and the end of the work week, it also marks the first complete week of work and the diet!!!!! Remember where I said in an earlier post that I have to rejoice in the little things? Well this is me rejoicing in the little things! Work is done, I'm four days down, I've yet to bite my boyfriends head off, and I have not become a nocturnal eater (wake up in the middle of the night with such a strong sense of hunger that you MUST eat). Usually by this time in every other diet I've tried, the nocturnal hunger sets in and bye-bye diet. I am by no means starving myself by eating nothing...I am taking many of your suggestions to heart, limiting my intake of fats, calories, and carbs, and switching to five small meals a day (oh by the way, thanks for the 'nut' suggestion, it's a life-saver!!!!).
Now it becomes the struggle point I believe - the weekend. The time in which every 20-something female enjoys the company of friends and some fun. I am no exception to this and have a pretty busy, if somewhat hectic plan laid out for the entire weekend. My boyfriends parents are taking us out to a very nice lunch tomorrow to belatedly celebrate my birthday, to be then followed by a fabulous shopping, dining, and all around amazing girl-night with one of my closest friends. Where's the problem? You all know it. The dining out and still being healthy. How do I manage to get something without looking like I'm bird picking at her food and still enjoy it? I must also admit to you that I am a picky, no make that a VERY picky eater. Seriously, I could live off of cereal and Kraft Mac & Cheese and would be content for life. So my worries for this weekend are a) enjoy and look like I'm enjoying lunch with my boyfriends parents while still eating a healthy meal, b) have an amazing time with my friend, while still being conscious of calories and carbs. Errrrr! I cheated on the weekends for every diet I've ever done, and I won't do it now....ok well almost won't. I know, I know....but I'm a HUGE football fan and Sunday is football and pizza day with the family. There are just some long-standing traditions that not even a diet can change....sorry for any disappoints, but do know that it will only be one slip, and I am planning for it, so will be extra careful with every other meal that day.
Hmmm....bathroom calls. Really, I'm going to figure out a way to create the attachable toilet. You know one that just sticks to you butt and will prevent you from having to get up every minute...especially when you're trying to cuddle with your boyfriend! Oh the sacrifices we women make to be thin.....
Friday, September 19, 2008
Day 3 - Call me Piss pot.
Have you ever noticed that as you make changes to your diet your bodily functions change? I mean that is a completely obvious deduction but you don't realize how drastic the change is until it occurs...and occurs rapidly! To give you a little background on the situation I should inform you that my usual intake of beverages consist of a morning coffee filled with caffeine, sugar, cream, and oh yea, caffeine! I am a waste of space at my desk without any form of caffeine in the morning, and the cream and sugar are added simply to help in the intake of the coffee, because without the caffeine I would NOT be a coffee drinker!
Anyway, the rest of the day would be followed with more of the same: a coke at lunch (nothing diet, just regular) maybe a whole bottle of water consumed throughout the day, and depending on my mood at night, another coke or class of milk. All in all, I was most definitely not getting my '8 glasses of water a day' nor was I even coming close to the required liquid intake they suggest. Fast forward to today and my diet: I go...no I RUN to the bathroom almost every 45 minutes! I am trying to be good and drinking my liquids (water) and less coffee (oh dear caffeine how I miss thee), but with the new intake of water levels, by bladder apparently can't keep up. With the amount of time I spend in the bathroom and running to the bathroom, I believe my coworkers are starting to worry about my health...both mental and physical.
So needless to say if the bladder control doesn't start improving I may turn into the crazy astronaut lady and wear a diaper at my desk just to prevent any more weird stares from my co-workers. I mean I know women pee more then men in general (or at least that's what the public bathroom lines tell me) but at this rate I think I should start investing in toilet paper stock...even in this market!
Anyway, the rest of the day would be followed with more of the same: a coke at lunch (nothing diet, just regular) maybe a whole bottle of water consumed throughout the day, and depending on my mood at night, another coke or class of milk. All in all, I was most definitely not getting my '8 glasses of water a day' nor was I even coming close to the required liquid intake they suggest. Fast forward to today and my diet: I go...no I RUN to the bathroom almost every 45 minutes! I am trying to be good and drinking my liquids (water) and less coffee (oh dear caffeine how I miss thee), but with the new intake of water levels, by bladder apparently can't keep up. With the amount of time I spend in the bathroom and running to the bathroom, I believe my coworkers are starting to worry about my health...both mental and physical.
So needless to say if the bladder control doesn't start improving I may turn into the crazy astronaut lady and wear a diaper at my desk just to prevent any more weird stares from my co-workers. I mean I know women pee more then men in general (or at least that's what the public bathroom lines tell me) but at this rate I think I should start investing in toilet paper stock...even in this market!
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Day 2 - Cringe and Squirm...
Ok so I am either incredibly brave or incredibly stupid, either way here goes....
I decided that in order to prove that I am a) real and b) serious about finally losing weight I took what I'm calling the 'Scary fat girl' pictures. They are before pictures of myself currently, you know like the ones they show on those cheesy gym equipment commercials that you swear must be digitally enhanced? Well I decided that I'd do that...of course, sans face, but still you get the gist of the rolls that are me.
So there I am in my flab and stretch marks. Roll one of course hangs over the stretchy shorts, which ride up the crotch because my thighs stick together, and what pretty thighs they are aren't they? (Ok don't think this is a pity party, it by no means is. The pictures are a wake-up call that I most definitely need to digest.) Due to the blackness of the shorts, you're unable to see the second roll lying beneath the first...but trust me it's there, and my jeans show it! Err! So this 'flab and glory' is what I am striving to get rid of. Right now I'm concentrating on staying to the diet, ie eating healthy foods...and yes I know cereal and diet pills are not the best way to go, but honeynut cheerios is fine with half a cup of skim milk and the diet pills will not be taken for a large amount of time, and will be weened off gradually to help prevent the plummet back into fat-dom. Hmm...maybe I should get out of fat-dom first, before I discuss plummeting back into it?
I decided that in order to prove that I am a) real and b) serious about finally losing weight I took what I'm calling the 'Scary fat girl' pictures. They are before pictures of myself currently, you know like the ones they show on those cheesy gym equipment commercials that you swear must be digitally enhanced? Well I decided that I'd do that...of course, sans face, but still you get the gist of the rolls that are me.
So there I am in my flab and stretch marks. Roll one of course hangs over the stretchy shorts, which ride up the crotch because my thighs stick together, and what pretty thighs they are aren't they? (Ok don't think this is a pity party, it by no means is. The pictures are a wake-up call that I most definitely need to digest.) Due to the blackness of the shorts, you're unable to see the second roll lying beneath the first...but trust me it's there, and my jeans show it! Err! So this 'flab and glory' is what I am striving to get rid of. Right now I'm concentrating on staying to the diet, ie eating healthy foods...and yes I know cereal and diet pills are not the best way to go, but honeynut cheerios is fine with half a cup of skim milk and the diet pills will not be taken for a large amount of time, and will be weened off gradually to help prevent the plummet back into fat-dom. Hmm...maybe I should get out of fat-dom first, before I discuss plummeting back into it?
Day 2 - Energy!
In the beginning of any new diet/weight loss plan you will inevitably have those first few days of complete will power. That is where I currently am. As I've only gone one day into my diet so far, I'm doing pretty good sticking to it. Yesterday would normally tend to be my hardest day of the week I imagine. I work two jobs on Tuesdays, one right after the other, and normally ingest fast food as a quick dinner between the two...however I abstained from the fast food establishments that are literally on every corner around me, and instead waited until I finally retreated home for some cereal. Cereal may not be the greatest food to partake of while on a diet, but if I'm to give up all the fast food joints, and co-worker lunches to those joints (yes, that is necessary) then cereal will be my savior!
I have yet to experience that all consuming feeling of hunger that drives you to distraction until you finally breakdown and grab that chocolate bar or unhealthy burger, so props to me! Yea, I know, only one day. In all honesty however people are right, you need to take all the little successes and make them personally big successes or you'll never reach your final goal. So I'm taking the small steps as they come and celebrating. Day 2 - here I come!
I have yet to experience that all consuming feeling of hunger that drives you to distraction until you finally breakdown and grab that chocolate bar or unhealthy burger, so props to me! Yea, I know, only one day. In all honesty however people are right, you need to take all the little successes and make them personally big successes or you'll never reach your final goal. So I'm taking the small steps as they come and celebrating. Day 2 - here I come!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Day 1 - Ready, Set, Go!
Ok so this is Day 1 - I suppose I should start out by informing you about myself. I am by no means some skinny chick who needs to lose a few pounds and therefore considers herself fat. I am fat. Plain and simple. I have been fat since puberty kicked in, gave me some awesome boobs, and a big stomach, with a nice butt. That was 13-years ago. I am now 25 and more then ready to remove the love handles that I am not fond of, and the butt that is no longer cute (the boobs, well they can stay.) Full disclosure? I am 5"4, weigh as of this morning 171 lbs, am a size 14 (if I'm being truthful and not striving to shove myself into my jeans, I'm actually a size 16), and my bra size has become a 38C. Cup size has stayed the same since I was about 15...whatever the other number stands for has progressively increased since that age, and I know that's not a good thing (although the guys might think so).
Why the sudden desire to NOW start worrying about my weight, health, and body image? Simple, I'm fed up enough now to actually want to do something about it. Plus, I've recently started living with my boyfriend and am more conscious of my entire body image then I was before. Yes, yes, he loves me no matter what, but come on girls you gotta be with me on this...I'd rather he see me in a sexy teddy from Victoria Secret that looked absolutely amazing on me, then wearing a pullover nightgown from WalMart. I'm not dissing WalMart by any means, but when it comes to sex and sexy VS has it down.
Outlining my weight loss strategy - 1) Eat healthier (no more morning D and D trips on the way to work). 2) Find at least a few minutes a day to exercise (to this point exercise is all but a foreign word to me). 3) Exercise without collapsing and having to be rushed to the hospital. 4) This may be extremely controversial to some of you out there...but I am doing it anyways. I will be taking diet pills along with the above steps to help 'speed' along my weight loss. 5) Keep up with this blog....outside of losing the actual weight, this will probably be the hardest for me to do...I was never good at the journal writing in class.
Rewards for achieving goals:
Loss of 5 pounds: Nice job, but not worthy of much - keep going.
Loss of 15 pounds: Now we're getting somewhere - reward, new pair of jeans (if applicable).
Loss of 20 pounds: Shoes anyone!?!?!?!
Loss of 25 pounds: Hopefully fitting into some amazing dress and going out to a fabulous place with the bf.
Loss of 30 pounds: Hello Victoria Secret!!! Shopping spree of lingerie and nighties!!!
Loss of 40 pounds: Bikini and a beach with my buds (never happened before...would be so amazing!)
Why the sudden desire to NOW start worrying about my weight, health, and body image? Simple, I'm fed up enough now to actually want to do something about it. Plus, I've recently started living with my boyfriend and am more conscious of my entire body image then I was before. Yes, yes, he loves me no matter what, but come on girls you gotta be with me on this...I'd rather he see me in a sexy teddy from Victoria Secret that looked absolutely amazing on me, then wearing a pullover nightgown from WalMart. I'm not dissing WalMart by any means, but when it comes to sex and sexy VS has it down.
Outlining my weight loss strategy - 1) Eat healthier (no more morning D and D trips on the way to work). 2) Find at least a few minutes a day to exercise (to this point exercise is all but a foreign word to me). 3) Exercise without collapsing and having to be rushed to the hospital. 4) This may be extremely controversial to some of you out there...but I am doing it anyways. I will be taking diet pills along with the above steps to help 'speed' along my weight loss. 5) Keep up with this blog....outside of losing the actual weight, this will probably be the hardest for me to do...I was never good at the journal writing in class.
Rewards for achieving goals:
Loss of 5 pounds: Nice job, but not worthy of much - keep going.
Loss of 15 pounds: Now we're getting somewhere - reward, new pair of jeans (if applicable).
Loss of 20 pounds: Shoes anyone!?!?!?!
Loss of 25 pounds: Hopefully fitting into some amazing dress and going out to a fabulous place with the bf.
Loss of 30 pounds: Hello Victoria Secret!!! Shopping spree of lingerie and nighties!!!
Loss of 40 pounds: Bikini and a beach with my buds (never happened before...would be so amazing!)
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